Sunday, January 20, 2013

City of Bridges, City of Steel


 
 
 

 

No, I couldn't give you directions around Pittsburgh, or even get myself from place to place without getting lost and venturing unexpectedly onto one of those super steep, heart-stopping side streets. 

I'm not exactly a 'burgher.  But I was born there.   And lived in Zelienople (sort of a 'burb) through my babyhood and toddler years until my parents moved our family to IL after which point every summer vacation was absolutely and totally nothing more and nothing less than a station wagon road trip to visit paps, grandmas, aunts, uncles, and cousins in Bloomfield (Pitt neighborhood, now "Little Italy") and Penn Hills.  (And also two hours further east in Cambria County to be blogged on in a few posts...)

Okay, so I'd get lost and I don't know all the sites and specifics, but I've formed the bridges, tunnels, old city houses and narrow streets into a gestalt familiarity for myself -- things that seem to have absorbed into my being from viewing Pittsburgh from the back seat of the wagon year, after year, after year.  From Mom tuning in the radio as soon as possible to KDKA to the sharpness of "Dahntahn," "Youins," and all the Pittsburghese that sounds to me of family, childhood, and comfort.  It's a large piece of my identity puzzle, and I love the place!  So, here is "Pittsburgh Trip Part 2"  .  .  .

Day one started with a trip to my Pap and Grandma Jones' old row house on Cypress Street in the Bloomfield neighborhood where I pointed out to my kids the house and walked around to the back alley to give them a peak at the tiny backyard where my grandparents had kept a perfectly maintained house, porch, and yard and where they'd nurtured roses and mint. 

I shared with them the visits we'd enjoyed in that patch of green, sipping ginger ale and snacking on butter cookies and M&Ms.  We ran the street and alley, playing hide-and-seek only for us, older Jones cousins (me, my sister, Remy, and cousins, Bonnie and Beth) to end up in the third floor of the house, looking out at the whole neighborhood. (My brother, James, and cousin, Sharon, were 6 1/2 years too young to run loose like us, big kids.)

The garage as it appears below is the most unchanged component.  When we stayed for longer visits, this was our frequent entrance point. 

It made my heart ache to walk around and around the house, yet not be able to cross the threshold and to see it all again.  A room-by-room tour in my memory had to suffice  .  .  . the thick, white paint on the interior trim, small front living room, wonderfully tall staircase that divides the first room from the eat-in kitchen.  The exercise bike in the basement.  Grandma's cherry vanity and chair, and fabulously fancy brush and mirror in the master bedroom up the stairs to the left.  The tiled step up into the shower, and the seemingly secret stairwell in the back bedroom that leads to the attic  .  .  .  Sigh  .  .  .

 
The street cryer, however, beckoned, and we answered (not that we necessarily had a choice).  Dee declared that she knew "Chuckie" and "Tommie" and "Annie" (my first dad, uncle, and aunt); her husband was friends with them and "Chuck and Marge" (my grandparents) were wonderful neighbors.

She informed me that my second cousin (Dad's cousin), Jackie, lived a few steps from where we were standing -- on Cypress Street, right there.  It had been years since I'd seen this cousin, but visits with her, her siblings, their kids, and, of course, her mom, the fabulous and hilarious Aunt Cathy, were part of every summer trip of years past. 

I knocked.  There was no answer.  Dee knew she was home and called her; Dee swore that Jackie didn't have to work that day, and she hadn't seen her go anywhere, and she had to be home.  Yep.  Dee was on the money -- Jackie was, indeed, home, and hadn't answered the door simply because she was still in a house dress. 

Knowing it was us, now, she opened her home and welcomed my crew.  It was the next best thing to being in Pap's place.  We visited and laughed and hugged with family.  On Cypress.  In Bloomfield. 

She called her sister, Elaine, to come over from her residence a few streets away.  And I might add, here, that standing on one of these streets feels more like standing in a hallway, as the roads are so very narrow and the houses so very close to the street and to each other -- almost always sharing exterior walls. 

The intimacy I had remembered from childhood was not merely that of a child's imagination. 

Serendipity, I love you!


On to lighter notes, but a plenty heavy meal -- Primanti's for lunch!  The neighborhood, building, food, and people all had what I might call a quintessential Pittsburgh flavor.  If you're ever in the 'burgh, I highly recommend it for getting a metaphorical taste of the city.



 

 
 


A road and river "Ducky Tour" followed by a ride on the Monongahela Incline was a relaxing way to take in more of the sites.
We ventured into the small "Toonseum" downtown.  Really small relative to our expectations, but interesting.  At left is a pic I took of a large photo in the museum showing a scene from the latest Batman movie  .  .  .










  .  .  .  and this is my not-so-great pic of the same street the day we visited.  The interesting thing is that the movie was shot during summer weather -- with LOTS of fake snow.







Now living east of the city, my aforementioned Aunt Ann and her husband, Uncle Rich, and their daughers, Bonnie and Beth, welcomed us to their home for a lovely lunch complete with dirt pudding (topped with gummy worms) for the kids (big and small).  I am sorry that I failed to take photos (boy, am I inconsistent with that!).  We didn't play hide-and-seek, but their hugs were as warm as ever. I think I was too busy relishing in their comfort to remember my camera.  There is a calm about them that brings one home so-to-speak, a kind of nurturing that we, adults, rarely receive in "mature" years.  Spending time in-person with family has a way of handing us back to ourselves. 



   As do the physical settings sacred to our personal narratives.

 

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Where I'm From

(Anna's poem from English class this fall -- modeled after a sample provided by the teacher, but pretty impressive for a student who's still an "English-Language-Learner," and the details she chose are all her own  .  .  .  )

I am from the green grass,
from trees and the smell of spring.
I am from the river that seems to run faster every day.
Clearly and noisily.
It feels as if the clouds are falling like the drizzle.
I am from the grime in the hilly garden,
with the long sweet sugar cane
whose juice is as sticky and sweet as I would like it.
I am from Bonithe and Jeff.
From whip cream and hair styling.
I am from hiding it all and scripting it down.
I am from heat and avoid the cold.
I am from "Boo!" here and "Boo!" over there.
I am from moments my mind fell asleep
throughout school periods for two years,
and several books I can read myself.
I am from Jeremie,
From homemade cacao and fresh mangoes.
I am from the eye my grandfather lost
into the night,
the laughter and song he entertained me with.
Inside my desk is a sachet filled with fine, sad pictures
of where I come from,
a cluster of wonders and smiling faces
to drift in memories.
I am from those moments,
wondered before I let it happen.
Rain falls with consent to raise the crops
the family planted.

At this time of year, let us give at least a moment of pause for all those in Haiti (and abroad) who mourn the loss of family and others important in their lives due to the January 12, 2010 earthquake in Haiti.  May there be healing for all those who were injured in body or in spirit.  May all those displaced find home.  May there be comfort, strength, and hope.  Perhaps one way to commemorate the loss of life and the on-going struggle experienced daily by the people affected by that tragic natural disaster is to spend a day or more slowing down, if even a bit, all day long to register privately in our minds each thing, person, and happening for which we are (should be) thankful .  .  .  maybe for the hot water coming out of the shower, or fresh, healthy milk for breakfast, or the ability to walk pain-free as we go about our business  .  .  .

 

Saturday, January 5, 2013

January 5th


While cleaning my home office over this holiday break I came across (among many things) a page I'd quickly typed, printed, and filed on December 23rd of 2010.   (We'll get to "January 5th" in a moment.)  After a year of emotional trauma and tireless lobbying efforts, we had finally received notification that the Office of Refugee Resettlement of the Department of Health and Human Services was granting us a temporary match with "Beatha Samedy" and "Jameson Mesilas." We would soon travel to Pittsburgh to spend time with the children under the supervision of the administrators and social workers at the group home where the kids resided.  If all went well, the children would be released to live with our family and for us to proceed with an adoption process.  The stress was far from over, but this was the biggie -- the break-through notification that we were finally approved at least with a path toward becoming a family.  On the night of December 23rd my usually mellow Hunter, showered and lying in bed, was full of energy as I came in to have our nightly bedtime chat and back rub; he said (beaming), "I can't believe we're getting the kids -- it feels like a dream!"

Today, January 5th, is our 2nd anniversary of Gotcha Day -- when Anna and Jameson were officially placed in our care after collaborative approval by Pittsburgh personell and US officials.  This afternoon we're having some pizza at home together -- between lots and lots of comings and goings for various basketball clinics and games -- a bit of time to remember the pizza ordered to our hotel room two years ago (somewhere in Ohio, where we paused for the night our travels from PA to home).  It tasted like freedom, and relief. 

Today, this cheesy, carb-heavy, late lunch is about realizing how much we've all worked at our healing, received support and truth from each other and our family and friends, and benefited from individual growth and increasing closeness within our relationships. 


Thank you, all, for your patience, help, and understanding as we went through that all-encompassing journey.  Nobody does anything alone, and we are grateful and humbled for the angels in our lives. 

Pass the Parmesan!

 

Friday, January 4, 2013

Pittsburgh, PA




Okay, this post will be one of three for our Pittsburgh travels. (Yes, still catching up with blogging from summer events.)

Our Pittsburgh host was Kay (Karen) Marryshow -- attorney, post-airlift volunteer for the children evacuated to Pittsburgh from Haiti, world traveler and former model, granddaughter of TA Marryshow, mother of three fabulous children, and one of the most generous spirits I've met in my 39 years. Her daughter, Grace, became best friends with my Anna at Avonworth Elementary when Anna and Jameson lived in Pitt.  The girls have stayed in touch, and when Kay learned that we were considering a visit to Pittsburgh, she insisted we stay with them -- all 6 of my crew! 


 Kay and Gordie provided lodging and gourmet meals and chauffeured us all over the city of bridges. As if that weren't enough, they offered to host a huge cookout so our kids could visit easily with the three boys adopted by Pittsburgh families with whom Anna and Jameson had lived at the orphanage in Haiti as well as in Pitt for the year following the earthquake.

When I finally wore Kay down and convinced her to let me help with a few of the dishes was when I happened to notice the small tattoo on the inside of her wrist -- "want less." She explained it's her constant challenge, inspired by Buddhism. She was comfortable, yet entirely humble in discussing her "imperfect" focus on letting go of expectations. Living alongside her for a few days, I was easily inspired by how effectively she has given herself to being present for others, even to and for a family from Illinois who had been strangers.

The gals.
 
Chad and Gordie
 
 
That's a crew! Kay's oldest son, Welcome, is pictured standing on the right, and Grace's twin, Prosper, stands to the left. While Anna visited with her "old" friend, the rest of us had a relaxing and fun time making new ones.
 
 
Pictured here are five of the twelve orphanage mates of which Anna and Jameson were a part -- the dozen kiddos who continued to live together in Pittsburgh before going home to their families. Stanley (white T-shirt) stands in the back-right behind his younger brother, Kensley, and Fekens holds down the  center spot.  Their familiarity with one another was instantaneous -- like cousins visiting each other on a holiday.





Fekens is the liveliest of the crew, although, they could all hold their own just fine . . . except Anna who wanted no part of the horseplay.

 


 
This picture brings me peace.
 
 
On a different note, want to talk serendipity?   Kay's mom worked in healthcare and knew Dr. Utberg, the obstetrician who delivered years ago at North Hills Passavant Hospital a baby girl named "Sherry."  Yeah, THIS "baby girl."  I took a journey to "Haiti" and ended up where I began.
 

Tea and a Bagel


Thursday, October 18th, approximately 7:05 am.  We're all readying ourselves for a school day. 

A stove burner is on "low."  I inquire, a bit concerned.  Anna replies, "I'm making tea."  "Okay," I say with a sense of curiosity and caution.  (The kids don't really use the "real" stove, yet.) 

I rustle around the pantry looking for oatmeal when the female middle schooler informs me, "Mom, I'm making you breakfast."  Amused, a bit curious, and peacefully overjoyed, I close the food closet and sit at the counter. 

A pumpkin spice bagel, toasted and buttered, and a beautiful cup of decaf mint tea with a touch of real sugar.

Need I even say it?  Anyone out there have a teenage daughter?  Anyone out there bring an older adoptive child into your family?  Out of bed, ready on time, cleaning up after herself thoughtfully, and MAKING BREAKFAST FOR ME. 

Addendum


While visiting with the Griffith-Haskells, we also saw the 1st Pizza Hut (teeny tiny brick building on the campus of Wichita State University) and appreciated immensely their patience with the four different shopping styles of our children as we satisfied our consumerism with WuShock merchandise at the university's bookstore!