Thursday, March 21, 2013

Cambria County



So, it's only March of the next year, and I'm getting around to blogging part 3 of our SUMMER (yes, 2012)trip to Pennsylvania.  Things haven't been one bit busy around our house.  Anywho, after the wondrous adventures in Pittsburgh, we headed to the coal mining hills of Cambria County to visit my maternal kin -- Grandma Miller, Aunt Sue and several of her girls, Aunt Jane, Uncle Bill and Aunt Camilla and several of their children.  And in addition to having a bit of time with lots of my cousins, there were their spouses, and their kiddos -- all at one ginormous, fabulous cookout.  There was so much catching up to do, and the time was racing like I don't even know what, aaannnndddd I failed to take hardly any photos at all.  Bum-mer!  As in big fat bummer of bummers.  Except that what I did was enjoy the moments.  I knew the short amount of time we had available for our Carrolltown and St. Benedict visits was going to feel like not quite enough, and boy was I ever right! 

We were in the land of my mother's birth, and that of her mother, and where we, cousins, became sisters for a couple of weeks every summer of our childhood -- our parents and theirs at any particular moment uncertain as to precisely where we were, but knowing we slapped down cards or raced in the yard somewhere within the large Miller clan of kids and parents.  We slumbered and played kickball and "colored eggs" (long story -- a strange running-tag sort of game).  We cooked "mountain pies" on the gas stove, picked wild strawberries at the fair grounds, and made up games out of nothing more than a coveted pair of high heels, newspaper parade pom poms, and a few baby dolls.  We stayed up far too late, giggled and bickered plenty, and were delighted beyond measure with what could be bought for twenty-five cents at the old candy shop uptown. 



Sigh.  Chad and I wouldn't have time enough to walk our children past the now-closed shop of sugary treats nor have nearly enough hours to indulge in a satisfactory amount of talk with everyone.  Nonetheless, it was therapeutic in many ways  .  .  .  life-long conversations restarted as if no time at all had passed, and I was reminded, yet again, of the blessing it is to be known -- known by folks who either held me when I was still in diapers or who battled me for toys once we were both old enough to walk, babble, and grab. 

 

Cambria County is an area of incredible natural beauty and also economic hardship.  Nestled among the endless trees and contours of the land and roads are churches and bars, yards blessed by statues of Virgin Mary and clubs for dancing ladies.  The dangers of the coal mine forged within those small communities an intimacy that permeates to today, and many, many folks remain close to home.  Frugality is a value, as are generosity and hospitality.  Food is home-cooked and done so in ample quantity, but without waste.  Homes are clean and loved, and shoes are removed at the door so as to preserve appropriately the hard-earned, new carpet.  Or old carpet whose condition dare not be violated by callous carelessness.  Elbow grease and pride.  There is a wise, beautiful, refreshing simplicity that has grown from a difficult past, and the nuances are as familiar as my mom's chicken "pot pie" (dumplings) and bird egg beans.


Very late in the evening after at least half the party-goers had departed, Bay reminded me of my camera with her request for snapshots of her with those who remained at the gathering of her "new cousins" (second cousins, but she didn't want that qualifier of perceived distance).  As Alyssa (my cousin Chrissie's daughter) and my Baylor cuddled up on their sleep-over bedding and showed to each other their school websites I realized how very many years really had passed since it was I and my cousins preparing for bed on a blanketed floor.  We had only large, heavy scrapbooks of whatever seemingly relevant photos we'd managed to capture during the year between visits.  Our worlds seemed further apart, more different, then than do those of these girls now.

(Starting top-left is Debbie's Miranda, and following clockwise are Pam's Kelly,
then Chrissie's Alyssa, & my Baylor.)
 
 
(My Anna tending to Chrissie's Carly.)

 
The visit with Grandma at the nursing home and our venture up the gravel-dirt "road" to St. Joseph's Mission Church were points in time far slower in pace, and thus, captured in images.  St. Joe's is where my mom attended mass as a child, and the cemetary in the front seems to me the most peaceful resting place I can imagine -- surrounded by hills of wildflowers and trees.  It's an out-of-the-way spot on a hilltop where I can hear myself think, and it's easy to breathe.  Climb the hill and then turn to stand with your back to the church; the lookout is amazing.  It's not dramatic in a Grand Canyon sort of way, but calming in a vein of simplicity, quiet, and humility.  Breath-taking in its own right.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
We drove through St. Benedict, taking the same, short curving road of which I'd dreamed as a kid in the long months between our annual roadtrips.  Following the sharp turn up and to the right, our vehicle emerged into the town, and we continued past the rows of mining homes now remodeled with different colors of siding and multitudes of add-on rooms.  Then, a slow turn onto gravel on the left sped my heartrate just as it did year after year, throughout my life.  Pap and Grandma's rugged lane -- not a private drive, but simply a one-lane, unpaved, bumpy "road" shared by a number of homes dotted along either side.  The anticipation of cousins was always too much to hold, and the sound of tires on the rocks that proved sharp to bare feet chasing down stray kick balls was the announcement of arrival.  This year, with the house now owned by strangers, we could only pause for a moment as I pointed out to the kids the former location of grapevines around which we played our "colored eggs" game.  I realized the images in my mind of the "blonds" versus "brunettes" teams of Miller cousins was invisible to them, and this emotional drive-by was mine alone.

The kids wanted to stop at the display of military vehicles now installed on the very fair grounds where years ago a younger me had hunted for an hour to fill a plastic drinking cup of tiny, flavorful wild strawberries.  (Aunt Sue made them into strawberry shortcakes for us that night three decades ago.)

 
 

 

Fast forward to Friday, February 8th, 2013, and look what arrived in the mail -- a card from Aunt Sue with a picture enclosed.  In our busy lives correspondence is a rare treat, and so, this note from my beloved aunt was a delight:  Sherry, I stopped in a local pub and to my surprise they had this painting hanging on the wall.  It was hand painted.  Why they chose to paint your favorite candy store is beyond me.  I guess it was a famous place for someone else besides you.  It is a perfect image of the store.  Look and see the candy in the window!  You can even see the man who owned the store inside through the window.  His name was Merle Kirsch.  He has passed away now.  I just had to take a picture of the picture so you could see it.  The pub is in the town of Patton; about six miles from here.  Love, Aunt Sue  Of course, Patton -- the cousins always talked about "Patton Pool" (as in swimming).  I framed that picture right away and set it on a shelf in my office where I can look up and see it easily when I break from typing. As I want for you to see it, too, I took a picture of the picture of the painting (giggle).


Seriously -- THIS is exactly what it still looked like when I shopped there in the 1980s.  I'm sure my kids think, "Wow, Mom, I didn't know you were THAT old!"  When I was a kid, I imagined I was on "Little House on the Prairie."  It was one of the coolest places on Earth.  The building is still there  .  .  .  an interesting history project to be had  .  .  .

Cousins Cathy, Tony, Pam, Deb, and Chrissie and your spouses and kiddos -- thanks for a fun visit.  Aunts Sue, Aunt Jane and Uncle Bill and Aunt Camilla -- thank you for a wonderful time together.  I shall remember sooner my camera next time!  To all the cousins and aunts and uncles who reside outside of PA, imagine yourself hugged, also.  It felt admittedly odd, and sad, that out of necessity for her well-being, my time with Grandma was limited to her new residence at the senior center and that when we left, she had to stay.  Yet, in her commentary to us concerning the on-goings of the other residents in the visiting lounge, I was strangely reassured that some things don't change.  She may not remember that I was ever there for the visit, but at the time, in the moment, she was attuned critically (ahem) to all that transpired.  Oh, family is just a hoot. 


 
 
 
 

And an anchor and a buoy all at once.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

F O R T Y

Turning 40, as I have recently done (yesterday) didn't phase me, really.  Age, to me, tends to seem a fluid thing rather than a definitive label.  For the most part.  There is that time-warp whereby I may feel 17 and 30 (or whatever age) all at once, recalling my HS days of eating apple turnovers slathered with frosting during AHS study hall like it was just a few years ago, or last week, even.  But then, when attending the AHS girls' state championship game last weekend (with my fabulous sister and former teammate), it struck us that a girl with whom I graduated had a DAUGHTER on the team.  That from the perspective of the student section decked in their blue and gold, Remy and I are "parent-type people."  Old.  I see myself clearly in the "parent" generation, as I spend all my waking hours parenting or teaching HS kids or both.  But when one returns to the home turf, it takes on a new perspective

What really phased me yesterday, on the actual, no-longer-30-something day, wasn't my age, but my family and my friends.  OH.  MY. GOODNESS.  How can any one person deserve so much time and energy and thoughtfulness from such a large number of people?  The phone calls, and messages, and emails, and cards, and in-person visits, and gifts, and recalling of memories.  Hugs.  Laughter.  Vulnerable sentiments.  That's a whole lot of becoming convinced that I really am already "enough."  Powerful stuff. 

I treasure and am keeping in hard-copy form all of my notes.  To catalogue them here would be a huge and silly task, but I thought I would at least share with you what my children wrote to me  .  .  .

Baylor's characteristic lovey-dovey, not afraid to let her sentiments show:
"Happy Birthday Mom!  You're the best mom in the world!  I don't know what I would do without an awesome Mom like you!  Happy 40teith B-day Mom!  Love Baylor"

  .  .  .  and Jameson's typical, direct and sweet style:
"happy Birthday mom I Love you and I wish you have a god Birthday and youer not 39 youer 40 now.  Love, Jameson"

  .  .  .  and Anna's under-the-gun-for-time-so-rhyming-will-have-to-do poem that admits she's learned some stuff from me (hooray!) :
"Happy Birthday!  It's her birthday --  What a day --  It's old mamma's birthday -- There's so much to say -- I just want to shout 'hurray'! -- You have done so much for me and Bay -- You have taught us to say okay -- You've taught me things I didn't know about the USA -- Today is your special day to stop working and except (accept) our repay -- You are truly wonderful, for you I pray -- I wish you the happiest 40th birthday -- 'Hey,' how did you get so old so fast?  Happy birthday.  Love, Anna"
(All rhyming until her comical dig at the end, that is.)

  .  .  .  and then, there's Hunter's take:
"Dang can't believe your 40.  Know whenever we r walking across the street together people will think I'm helping elderly foke across the road and then there will be a line of them waiting to be walked across.  It would make me look good but I think I should charge a dollar.  Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love, Hunter  p.s. don't be grandma kissing me just cause u r getting older lol.  Yolo -- you only live once.  Sorry you can't age backwards unless you a zombie.  (Picture of 80+-year-old woman wearing newspaper hat, green ribbon necklace and red paint on her nose)  It took me 40 years to look this good."

A day of laughter, indeed!